“It slipped your mind that I was going to be moved out of my home? Do the Luna and Alpha know? Does Dad know? Oh, Goddess he is going to be so pissed. Or maybe not. Did he kick me out? Is that what happened? He hates me so much that he doesn’t even want me in his house now either?” I’m starting to spiral and can feel the tears start to sting behind my eyes.
I start rubbing my temples with both of my hands and I blink them back as best I can, I cannot lose control here. I just want to run to my room and cry at the thought of not having a home anymore, but I’m frozen, I don’t even know where I would run to now.
“Hey, hey, breathe. It’s not like that.” Mateo pulls me into a hug. “I wanted you out of his house, that’s all. I’m tired of the way he acts towards you. You are better off here, with Luna Ava. I didn’t think it would be that big of a deal.” Mateo is rocking me and stroking my hair.
I should be thankful that he finally sees me, sees what being around my father does to me, but I am pissed. It’s just another decision that was made for me, about me but without me. I take a deep breath and I push him away.
“You didn’t think it would be a big deal to pack up my things and rip me from the only place I have ever known because now you don’t like the way he treats me? Newsflash a*shole, that man has never loved me, never wanted me and never will. He has tolerated my existence for fifteen years and I have tolerated the neglect. Stop trying to think for me. I come and go as I please, thanks to that neglect. I eat where and when I want, thanks to that neglect. I have been on my own my entire life, you do not get to come in now and try to be the f*cking hero.” I stop and close my eyes, take a deep breath, then look at my brother and the rest of the guys and Sierra. “I know you all want to help, and that you mean well, but don’t presume there is an easy fix to what is going on. Thank you for bringing me closer to Luna Ava, but talk to me before you do anything else that drastically changes anything for me, make sure it’s what I actually want and not what makes you feel better. Now show me my room.” I turn around and walk toward the packhouse front door where I see Luna Ava standing waiting for us. Why is she smiling like that?
“Well said my dear, teach those boys to think first react later instead of throwing sh*t at the wall and seeing what sticks.” She laughs and Sierra comes up behind me linking her arm with mine. “But, seeing as they have already had all of your stuff moved and I anticipated you being angry with them, I will show you to your new room.” She walks us up the stairs to the second floor and to the right around the wall that houses the elevator. She punches in a code to the third floor staircase and leads me up.
“You put me on the third floor? With the twins?” I ask her back as we ascend.
“After some thought and your very colorful interaction with that girl yesterday, I thought it would be a good idea to not have you on a floor that literally everybody has access to. So I have your things in the boys’ study.”
“I don’t want to take over one of their spaces.”
“Nonsense, they don’t really use it, they both have desks in their rooms where they do homework and if they are working on anything for pack business, they do it in the Alpha’s office on the main level. They never actually use this room, it gets more used when the boys stay.”
“I don’t want to be in the way of that either. This is messing with more than just me, I don’t want to inconvenience anyone.”
