It’s been a little over a week since I started recognizing and talking to other people again. I turned my phone on all the time and even opened all of Tyler’s apology texts so he can see that I have read them. I still haven’t responded, I haven’t talked to him in a month, this has to be slow. I also started wearing the choker necklace.
I figure if Tyler is going to forgive me, he’s going to do it while looking at a piece of jewelry around my neck that means a lot to me and from another guy. It’s really too fancy to wear everyday, but I feel better with it on, almost like my head is clear having something from them so close. Same with the bracelets, It feels wrong to take them off somehow, Like i feel physically ill when I take them off to shower or workout.
There are so many games to relationships, it’s stupid. I wish that I didn’t need Tyler to think that I was slowly forgiving him, but that is the only way he will trust me. This is why I am a better warrior. I can beat the sh*t out of someone for pissing me off and then call it a day and move on with life. These games are exhausting.
I got to my Ecology class early and sat in my former spot, where Tyler, Mike and Robbie still normally occupy. It would be my luck that I decided to talk to them and they aren’t here today. I waited for what seemed like forever, the class was basically full with only a minute or two to start when finally all three walked through having what appeared to be a very serious conversation. None of them noticed me until they were three rows from the top. Mike saw me first and just stopped, Robbie then Tyler bumped into him.
“What the hell man?!” Robbie hissed. “Move your ass before we get in trouble.”
“I think we need to find different seats today.” Mike does not take his eyes off of me when he talks. I can smell the nervousness wafting off of him. Why is he nervous?
The other two look around to see what has him in a panic. Robbie sees me and just scowls, Tyler looks just as nervous as Mike, swallowing hard enough for me to see his Adam’s apple move.
“Fine.” Robbie grumbles and heads back down a few rows where he and Mike take seats at the end of the row.
Tyler nods to himself and slowly walks over to me. “Hey. He whispers, but then says nothing else.
“Hey.” I say a little curtly keeping my focus on him.
“It hasn’t been the same without you. The class is more boring without you asking a million questions.” He gives me a small smile.
“Well, I haven’t been up for a lot of extra chatter ately.” I shrug. He’s going to have to work harder than that.
“I know it’s not the time or the place, but I really am sorry. I was jealous and I was already angry at some news I had gotten right before we met up with you. I’m not trying to make excuses, but I didn’t handle the situation well.”
Professor Chance started in on the lecture and heavily hinted at information being on the final coming up so I turn and started taking notes. Tyler lets out a huff letting me know he’s not happy about my ignoring his apology, but turns and gets a notebook out.
He angles himselftowards me and brushes my knee with his and every fiber of my being wants to move away and elbow him in the nose, but I force myself to sit still and make him feel comfortable, because right now that is what all of this is about. He is going to bring me into the folds of the rogues and it is going to happen soon, or I may end up beating the information out of him.
